Tuesday, March 15, 2011

I'm out here, don't give up on me!

So many things in my life are happening right now that if I wrote it all down I would be here day and night! So, I'll give you the highlight in fast forward and you can ask me questions or whatever...

Yes, Ben made it to FL safe and sound! He is renamed Banshee and is sure loving his new family and doggie playmates. :) I love that I made the right decision to let Maria and Joe adopt him, even though we (and him) went through hell to get him down there from up here in WI. He is happy and so am I! :)
The other 3 dogs and a cat are re-homed too. It's a lot easier to get around here without tripping on them but dang it still rips my heart out but I have to think of me now.....

I had to use the manual wheelchair, that Phil borrowed me, for the first time a few weeks ago. I could barely take 3 steps, much less make it out to the van, so hubby carried me up the steps and into the van and off we went. I was not happy, let me tell ya. I was a pretty pissed off mama. It was bad enough that I hurt so bad I could have curled up and cried...the meds were NOT kicking in and taking care of the pain... and I had to use that fucking chair to get somewhere! ANYWHERE! Nothing like feeling helpless and trapped eh? Anyhow, I slept when I could...wheeled to and from the computer on my computer chair, and hung out on facebook for awhile and typed when my hands would let me, then wheeled back to bed. Docs finally found some meds that wanted to co-operate with me so they took the edge off the pain enough for me to get out of bed more often and act like I was actually LIVING!
Of course little Harmony would draw me pictures and bring them to me and she would bring me cookies and milk in bed. I don't suggest ever doing this with a 6 yr old!. LOL And of course she had to read me her never ending pile of books until her mom would call her back upstairs for bed. She would rub lotion on my arms, hands and legs and feet and tell me to get better too. Such a good little nurse! But After the cookies and milk and the drops of lotions, my bed would be a slimy mess and hubby would have to strip the bed every day! One day, Harmony noticed the bedding kept changing and she put her little hand on my shoulder, brings her face really close to mine and says, "Framma, did you have another accident last night?"
Let me tell you, I almost peed the bed laughing right then and there!